Wednesday and Thursday of last week were a whirlwind with parent-teacher conferences and looong days at school. On Thursday, I checked our local news site and saw that a nearby school district had closed due to Covid-19. Hmmm, that was alarming to me. So I continued on with conferences, continually refreshing news pages during appointments. I stopped by the store on the way home to pick up my Clicklist order and it was chaos. They weren't able to get many things on my list and the employees were so flustered and overwhelmed. I got home and immediately cried as I told AJ, "I think life is really going to change."
|Headline on March 13th|
|this mountain view coming down the stairs is always gorgeous to me|
|just hanging around|
Monday and Tuesday I went into school, set up my Google classroom, and made packets for my students. I miss them terribly and contrary to what many may think, remote teaching is not at all easier than face to face teaching. That human connection is missing and it hurts my heart. Luckily, I feel like there are so many excellent online resources out there and I'm getting the hang of Google classroom. I've been filming a video each day for my kids of either a lesson or simply reading aloud to give them some peace that I'm still their teacher and I love them.
|I filled that laundry basket with manipulatives and tools to use in teaching videos. It's my "Basket O'Teaching"|
|work packets ready to go|
Some things to smile about, though:
-extra Hank snuggles and playtime is #1!!
|You can see my laptop is perched on a box so I can read aloud to my students from here|
-AJ and I have really kicked up our workouts and are kicking some booty in our basement. Plus the FREE 90 days on the Peloton app is awesome. Plus walks. Lots of walks.
|vegetarian curry over basmati rice|
|quinoa crusted chicken parm|
-Cleaned and sorted lots of paperwork
I've spent a few years now taking the lemons of life and trying to make lemonade. Ever since Hadley, my sweet 5 day old daughter passed away in my arms, nearly 4 years ago, I've searched and prayed to find silver linings in darkness and hope in the valleys... and it's worked. I've discovered stores of strength and the value of perspective in difficult times. And know, my friends, that sometime in the future I'll write a post in this very space about the lessons I've learned, the bright spots in the unknown, and the beautiful grace of a loving God and kind people in my path. It really is true: It could always be worse. It's important to empathize with those who don't have it as carefree as we do right now.
But now, I'm not sure, is the right time for diving into those musings. I miss my old life and feeling secure and settled. I know that this too shall pass and that hope--perfect, awesome hope, is there no matter what. But sometimes the healthy thing to do....the right thing to do.....the sane thing to do, is let the hurt hurt for a minute. Let your heart break knowing it won't be that way forever.
Lots of love to you my friends.
Savor Your Sparkle and Wash Your Hands,